I H S
To accept – To offer
– To thank.
November 22nd, 1989.
Receive the gifts of my first
handwritten letter since January 1989. How many I have received!
From the whole world. The Fraternity is not a vain illusion but
an absolute supernatural reality. That is why you have done well
to write to me with confidence.
I have taken advantage myself
of the Communion of Saints, I therefore could not deprive you of
its benefits too. Yes, I have prayed and suffered for the Sisters
of the Fraternity and I continue, conscious of the weakness of my
Here then is some advice:
1. Temptations are not sins,
every soul has temptations and fights against them with more or
less cowardice. It is the Sacraments which will strengthen us because
they pour forth grace, the life of God Himself. Every supernatural
act is an act of eternity. You see yourself your weakness of will
and the misery of your soul before God. Courage! It is the beginning
of wisdom. This makes you suffer, well then, offer up these sufferings,
offer your helplessness as spiritual flowers. Many a time these
are faded or wilted but our Heavenly Mother in Her maternal goodness
refuses not the gifts of the heart. Offer Her everything, your sorrow,
your voluntary or involuntary temptations, your faults and even
your falls. Our Lady of Compassion will purify all. She will know
how to present your offering to Her Divine Son.
2. You think that you are
separating yourself always more from God. I do not believe this.
You are in a phase of spiritual life where you begin to understand
that sentiment and impressions are radically different from union
with God. It is not because you no longer feel the fervour that
you have necessarily left the path of sanctity. It is even in aridity
and in fog that we achieve the most progress. How? By remaining
faithful to the small things of the religious life, because regularity
and precision are the tangible proofs of our fidelity in the same
way that silence is its thermometer. Again courage! Every day it
is necessary to start again and to give back to God, because every,
every day at every moment, we have a tendency to take back that
which we have given. It is therefore necessary always to give back
3. As for sanctity, it can
appear to be a dream. In fact, one is not born a saint but one can
die in a state of sanctity, that is to say, purified, liberated
from ourselves. Very few succeed, some even think that certain saints
have passed through Purgatory! For goodness sake, do not be afraid
of the gap between the ideal and the reality, accept yourself –
that is the beginning of humility. The Good God will take on Himself
that task of sculpting your soul to His likeness and that will not
be done without pain. I am also going to pray more especially for
you on December 8th that Our Lady will give you her peace and that
your devotion will become more true, less sensitive but more firm,
constant, nearly military.
Finally, self-denial is an
apprenticeship, it has a beginning, modest, small, humble. Self-denial
on pride, on believing oneself to be something when one is nothing.
We are useless, incapable, powerless servants. To accept, to offer
that. Also thank the Good God for giving you the grace to see clearly
your misery. You are beginning to be a true sister. Your entry into
religion was a condemnation of the world and the first station of
your way of the Cross, way of perfection, way towards sanctity.
I will unite you therefore
to Our Lord in His Precious Body and I will mingle you with His
Precious Blood in the Sacrifice of the Altar.
On December 8th,
for your consecration to Our Lady especially, you must also pray
for me because I will renew for three years my commitment to the
As to my health, there is
a clear progress. I am starting again to say Mass every day and
I am beginning to do a bit of work here at the Carmel. I have now
passed more than 500 days in hospital, 107 general anaesthetics
and 76 surgical operations, Radio-therapy (1975- 6), operations
('82-'86) and chemotherapy (1989) have reduced me to what I am.
A priest firstly; the doctors were not able to affect my priestly
state, so it was on the body that they were practising. Sufferings
and humiliations, nothing was spared me. The five senses have been
affected, all my organs have made me suffer.
Grace alone remains and with
it, peace. It is through your prayers and your sacrifices united
to those of the faithful, the nuns and priests of the whole world,
that I owe all my spiritual benefit! Therefore thank you, or rather,
The Communion of Saints is
perhaps the thing that I have tried the most. I beg the Lord and
Master to make you share and profit from this magnificent Catholic
treasure which is not depleted but is enriched by use.
With my priestly blessing
P.S. As for my ordination
cards, actually I cannot give you any because all my belongings
are in boxes. I have nothing with me. I try to live poverty.